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About chiller

Rachel Coldbreath spent 20 years working internationally as a technical specialist on large data collections for law firms, before becoming disabled. She blogs on a variety of topics from the news and politics to gardening and how very annoying it is, being disabled. Habits include drilling holes about 1mm away from where they ought to be, and embarking with great enthusiasm on tasks for which she is neither physically nor intellectually equipped.

Perfect though

A few days ago, I woke up with a different head. It was not the one I’d gone to bed in. My old head wanted you (nonspecific you, you in general, you singular or plural, you-who-is-not-me) to notice me and … Continue reading

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Time to live.

“I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.” Mmhmm. “I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate.” Rutger, calm your tits mate. I’ve just been for a walk in … Continue reading

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He says: “Write! You must write and you aren’t writing. It’s because you’re worried it won’t be good enough…” And “No,” I interrupt. “It isn’t that. It isn’t that.” I know I’m good. There is no ear to whisper into. … Continue reading

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Drawing Henrijk

How does it work, this ART thing? How does it pop into being? For me, it starts with a little detail. I was staring at Henrijk the cat from above, and the X in the middle of the bridge of … Continue reading

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I’ll tell you one thing if you like (What’s that?) I’ll always be hott If I’m thin, if I’m fat, If I’m he or I’m she Or I’m nonbinary, If I’m young or I’m old Or sick or healthy, If … Continue reading

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An audio version of this post is available here. Somehow the shoes – not the clothes – were what did for me. Two crammed bin liners in, and I abruptly threw the second one down and walked out of the … Continue reading

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North Star

You can hear me reading this here. — Keep your star in the north, remember love. You can only be you but remember others. Open your arms and let them be filled and emptied and filled again by the tide, … Continue reading

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