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If I wanted to talk about it I wouldn’t have written it down.

An audio version of this post is available here. — London is the love of my life. I have said this elsewhere, in other words in other years: I meant it. I cannot imagine loving a human being in the … Continue reading

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The Wonky Allotment

An audio version of this piece is available here. A few years ago I took an allotment. It was always a wildly ambitious –  perhaps even foolish – thing to do, given my health, but if there’s one thing I … Continue reading

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Perfect though

A few days ago, I woke up with a different head. It was not the one I’d gone to bed in. My old head wanted you (nonspecific you, you in general, you singular or plural, you-who-is-not-me) to notice me and … Continue reading

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Time to live.

“I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.” Mmhmm. “I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate.” Rutger, calm your tits mate. I’ve just been for a walk in … Continue reading

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Glass.

He says: “Write! You must write and you aren’t writing. It’s because you’re worried it won’t be good enough…” And “No,” I interrupt. “It isn’t that. It isn’t that.” I know I’m good. There is no ear to whisper into. … Continue reading

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Drawing Henrijk

How does it work, this ART thing? How does it pop into being? For me, it starts with a little detail. I was staring at Henrijk the cat from above, and the X in the middle of the bridge of … Continue reading

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Struttin

I’ll tell you one thing if you like (What’s that?) I’ll always be hott If I’m thin, if I’m fat, If I’m he or I’m she Or I’m nonbinary, If I’m young or I’m old Or sick or healthy, If … Continue reading

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